Time.

I was watching some tv earlier this week and saw the infamous Dr. Phil giving advice to a young married couple. The husband was overworking himself to make "tons of money" and then by the time he got home he was ill and cranky and would explode over nothing, just because the house had dust in it or something trite and trivial, which his wife at the time - 7 months pregnant and had two young children to care for didnt get around to cleaning and this enraged him even more because all he did all the time was spend his life, 80+ hours a week working because he wanted to. He openly admitted he wanted to be rich and such and that was the only reason for it, they lived very comfortable as far as monetary things go, but something was missing in 'their life'. Also he stated that he could easily work his 40 hours a week and be done and they would still have enough to provide for their means of living, but that's not what he wanted. Dr. Phil made a very good statement/quote/point/lesson whatever you wish to refer to it as that I wanted to share with everyone on my email list because it really hit home with certain people I know who don't have time to talk to me sometimes because of this very thing. These people in my life are the ones who don't understand why it is that when I work and have such a good job that if I wish to take a 2 hour lunch break to spend time with my fiancee and not just take the 30 minute lunch assigned so I can make that money then that is what I do - I take however long needed to make good memories with him. They don't understand why I would rather be late to work or make an occasional "sick day phone call " into my place of work so I can spend time with my husband and animal children and other people that need to spend time with me or that I need to go see. Anyway whether this applies to you or not does not matter, I am not pointing fingers at anyone specific on here. I am sure if it doesn't apply to you you will know of someone to send this to. We all do sadly. The point Dr. Phil made was as follows, I have altered it somewhat with my opinion as well but the main thing he said was this:

"You have never heard of someone on their death bed saying 'Man I really wish I would have worked more and worked longer hours to make more money because that is really important right now'. But you will almost always hear a person on their death bed or a person who is in a situation where they may die within hours/days say 'Man I wish I would have had my priorities straight and spent more time with the people in my life who I care about and who I love and who cared about me in return. My family, my children, my mother/father, my friends, my pets. Because that is what really matters right now and that is not necessarily 'what life is all about', it IS life. And if you don't have these things going for you and you don't take the time to acknowledge them and you let these things pass by, you haven't lived and you have no life worth living' You cannot take monetary things with you to the deathbed or even to the grave, at that point in time they don't matter. But what DOES matter is love, family, pets, what you did in life with these people, and the memories. Were you there for them when they needed you? Did you risk losing a little money just to have a lunch with them and say I really love you and care about you, I may not be here tomorrow, but I love you with all I have for today?

*I seriously altered what was said above with my personal thoughts and feelings. It's just something that was on my mind that I do not and will not ever understand about some people and how they can look at a dollar, a piece of paper with a silly government stamp on it and value that more than love from a family member, a good memory, etc that you CAN take with you to the grave and that you can leave your family members with if you were to leave this earth before they do. Just something to think about my friends. And with that I will leave you with my life 'saying' :

"One day with the top down is worth more than a lifetime living in a box."

i made him cry today

Well i called my father todady. My father has lost all touch with whom he is...I dont like who he is now. I want my Daddy back. I miss the man i could talk to with out being judged by what *GOD THINKS*...I miss just talking to him everyday bout bs that is going on in my life...I am his daughter for godsacks he should be clinging to me the most right now his only child still alive. But no...he seems to hide from me.
Today when i called him...I made him cry...The first time i have heard my father cry...well....Since cory or last time we talked bout cory's death. I asked him what he was doing today b/c i wanted him to come over today *kind of a test i guess you could say to see what he would come up with this time* and he said *But it takes hour and half to get there and back and church is at six...i would never be able to make it!* OMG are you serious!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Get a grip. I'm very happy that he has found god to share his life with..But come on...God had a family too...and you should cherish your family not ignore/hide from them....well then i said *ohwell and got really quiet* and he goes what?? what is wrong cassie ....I said nothing and kept quiet for a moment...then said * You cant come down spend time with me but you can go drive hours on end to see your family...you can ride round for hours on end in moberly but wont come see me...What is up with that dad*...he paused and he said well what are you doing next weekend..I told him quickly..WORKING* he goes ohh so you cant be off work when i wanna come down but you called in sick today..I was like day i am sick today i just wanted to see if you would come down..but as always...Excuses got in the way* he paused and said well when you come home friday night from work...Go to sleep and i will be there sat morning bright and early...Okay im thinking to myself FUCK THAT you said that once before..nice try again...and i just said Okay...and he said well see you next sat. morning i love you...i said okay love you bye..he goes what you dont think i'm going to come down i said no i dont..he started crying....and says*it hurts me cassie that i cant come see you*....I'm baffled i dont know what to say really cept *dont cry dad* I love my father very much and miss him very much so...But if it hurts you not to see me then come see me instead of going to chruch all the time...I could die tommrow afgter me and him fighting like this and he would have to live with the last memory of me being mad at him for not driving an hour and half to see me....

I have to go..i'm too sad to write now

Cassie

I hate liers! Ugh Okay my father told me two weeks ago that he would come up on sat. morning bright and early to see us on the 19th.....to see us before he leaves for Alababma to see my aunt and uncle down there for turkey day! well then he calls me friday night and tells me all this stuff about how he cant come down...how he has so much to do. Just quit lying to me and dont worry i aint going up there again till someone comes sees us....I'm tired of this shit. I use all MY fucking sick time to call in to go see everyone who am close with ....and does anyone come see me...Fuck no. it hurts. One fucking hour that is all it takes to drive down here...but you ppl can drive hours on end to go to concerts and other friends.....i'm tired of it all... i've been po'd about this for a long time...but now im super pissed...so no im not going to madison again till someone comes see's me...I'm bout to loose my job b/c i have used too much sick time to go up there...I cant do it anymore.

Okay i am done ranting and raving now...yell at me and tell me how stupid am i acting.

Being Clawed

Yes i was clawed to death all day at work...UCKK i hate that place sometimes when i have to deal with behaviors like that and get beat up at work..the state does not pay me enough to come home beat up like this...emtionally and physically its soo draining on you.

ANYYYWHOO i will stop complaining now..even though is not your journal what you go to ..to tell what you are feeling though we feel as though we should not linger on the subject long. i dunno im just tired and am talking stupid tonight i think. Just rambling on.

I need to go on a lil cleaning spree...ie. the kitchen, bathroom & bedroom and explorer too..also finish the darn laundry..but you know what it all can wait till monday or tuesday..my dayz off fromt he hell whole!

okay on a new subject you ever buy cat nip for your cat before? well my kitten..pictured here... is for some reason very hyper anywho being as he is only 5 months old come aug. 1st..anywho i bought him some toys..and they are laced with catnip...OMG BAD IDEA...that stuff is like Meth for ppl...wow talk about being high..my cat goes NUTS running out up and down on stuff..over and under stuff nonstop for like 3-4 hours at a time..now tell me that is safe...And by the way why does this crap look like weed? what is cat nip...humm sounds like a good question for the jeeves! *runs to ask him*


and the answer is this...


WHAT IS CATNIP ?
First broadcast on www.provet.co.uk
This information is provided by Provet for educational purposes only.
You should seek the advice of your veterinarian if your pet is ill as only he or she can correctly advise on the diagnosis and recommend the treatment that is most appropriate for your pet.
Catnip is widely available in toys for cats, and it stimulates excitement and play - but what is it ?
Catnip (Nepeta cataria) contains a substance called cis-transnepetalactone which when inhaled or eaten is thought to be hallucinogenic through the stimulation of centres in the brain. However, only about 50-70% of cats show the typical behavioural response - so there may be a genetic basis to the behaviour.
Typically behaviour includes :
Excited hunting and attacking
Rubbing
Shaking
Increased salivation
Rolling
Jumping
After a while the cat becomes immune to the effects.

okay so no more cat nip for my Shadow! lol

columbia

Well that trip went all well...We left at 9am and did not return till 7 pm that night...man those old lady's can shop...i was pooooped! I did buy some more stuff for the house thou...that all i seem to buy anymore is stuff for the house, its a never ending job...fixing up the house that is. Then this morning i got my big ole box of stuff in the mail that i ordered from www.terrysvillage.com for the house...so i gotta lotta work to do while im not at work this week. i wish i didnt have to work...but the way the world is you have to ya know...anywho i need to get off here and hang some pictures up and stuff anywho i will write more later take care & be safe all

road trip

Well Today I am going to drive the menaposal club to Columbia. That would be Prestons: MOM, Grandma & Great Aunt gloria. this is gonna be horrible to have not just one but three back seat drivers yelling at me that i drive to fast...i have been dreading this day...cuz for some reason...something is telling me not to drive them...but i dont want them to think i am a woosy and that i dont wanna drive there...i dunno anywho hohpe yall have a better day then me...take care

Cleaning

Well Have been cleaning all day. The house looks great. Laundry all caught up. Man does it make you feel much better about your self when you have a clean home. I found lots of stuff i forgot i had or stuff i had been look for ...forever! LOL.
I didnt get to go to the races last night but i did get to read the results today on the forum. Great job you winners! Ya'll always do a great job. I wish i had sat & sundayz off. I hate working weekends...anyone have a job i can have mon-friday...i will even work holidayz..lol okay okay just kiddin!
Preston's mom came over today with his grandma & his great aunt Gloria. I guess imma be their driver on tues when we go to columbia...Oh boy this is gonna be funny! Will have to tell yall all bout the exsperiance. Well gonna go Ya'll take care and God Bless